The Payback

Its a bad poem
As she makes me worse
As she finds herself innocent

You just fuck off out of me
You just suck the marrow of others` lives

Go get your gloves
Pray for your funeral
Bring your tombstone
Close your eyes

You give me the payback of my past
I owe you nothing

I will walk on my path

The Note of I

I was so completely imperfect

Never heard me saying an absolute truth
Never seen me making them blush

You`ve been watching me beneath the bush
You need no rush
In this ambush

Just let me imagining
Picturing
Yet, wondering reacting and solving
Before I finish the note

Trapped

I stare the stars
The sky embrace the light of mine
Ground feels round
O life, I am bound

Thee wake me up
Thy heart stabs me
This leakage strikes me to down deep
O life, My bone is bleeding

O, life, Me trapped
Under the different trees, Me stayed
I wanted to walk, the wind pulls me
It`s my life, O life

I could smell the rose beneath thy leaves
Thee sing me under the grief
While I am standing, I sing
"O faith, no hate, loving you is Fate"

(I`m)possible

         The sun hid behind conceited mountain and the agony of the clouds. A bird sang along with sheds of leaves. The last-night-rain wiped away hardships of my town. Good morning beautiful day. I wished somebody would open my window or even said hello to me that day. As I walked to a living-room, there would be a piece of paper attached to the aged freezer, it said: Ron, there`s Rp.20.000 in your bag, spend it wisely, & have a nice day sweetheart." My mom set all our daily plans as well that morning, unless she forgot to serve my breakfast, but I was still clinging to a hope that I would be in the pink, though no food in my stomach. Oh, that`s great because one of today subjects was Math!

The mist stepped away from my humble abode. I saw the blue sky fly upon my head, wishing the rain would not come. I thought that was a great signal to start my activities.

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The clock ticked away this life. People had found themselves in a fondness of lust and joy. The death has to be something forgotten. The world totally...
"Ron, Ron...!" a man shouted with his black looks.
Yes, Sir, pardon me, but did you mention my name?
"Geez, what do you think?"
I do think so, sir.
I forced this lips to be seen, innocent. Wow, that was a good question, enough to drown me beyond this awkward moment. My lord, I wish it was not happened. Was it sin? to let go of my imagination floating my brain? I assumed there was no room for me to stay.
The bell finally rang. I could not believe it, God must love me! I put my books back into my bag and walked away as the wind blows freely. I felt the air was crawling beneath my dark complexion.
I took a step from my class and no one dared to bother me. You would know why. Frankly, I hate to communicate with people around me. Consequently, I had a great and honorable title, "Idiotic nerd". That was the way I lived.

To be continued...

The Start

Its gonna be a shinny day
Where the lines seem so long
Two roads meant to be fail
I told you, its a start

Going nowhere but keep silence
I trust in patience
Though it makes a distance
I told myself, once

I keep staring at the star
There I saw a corpse
I take a step back
And there was no hack

I sit
I lie
I fall
I am awake, still

I am just about to start my future...from now .. on . . .

The Dream Killer

Thy love is seen
No need to be hated
Thee drown us to an eternal love
No brain to have,
Give me more

Thou comes and stays, and gone, but why?
I need you, not to leave
I hate you when thou leave
I am living, but you never exist
Give me more love

The sun shines to me, thee fade
I have been choked,
Please leave, just, leave
I am not yours, though thee was buzzing, only in my mind,

HappyNess

Even when you closed your eyes, you can hear people`s laugh, smell the fresh air that crawls beneath your skin, and speak the beautiful truth. Even in the dark, you can be happy, if only you believed in your heart, because it will light the way.

Happiness never fades.

Dawn

Early morning the sun rises to the bottom of the root,
The sparkle roads divide the two things different, my wife`s home, and my workplace
I shall go first to my wife`s home,
I trust my heart wholeheartedly so that I cannot blame for myself,
Sudden call hung me up awhile,
My mom calls me to bring a drink,
I am to shrink,
My mind abruptly is wondering that lust should go first,

Let her hopes and I go wildly,
The roads left only one way, straight to my wife`s,
Why it comes like this?Is this come by itself?
I am not waiting, but running
The sun put my clothes wet
There is no time to be lost
While I am myself, undoubtedly, lost

The time arrives,
My wife waits,
The night stares,
And I forget, I missed the dawn.

(Mom, dad, whatever it`ll be, I`ll be your son, and u R my hero)

Naked

Leak in my side
Broke my arm
Clutching the eyes of mine
The wind blowing crudely

I push the stars
I blow the sun
I kick the rainbow
The air struck the window

I aint touch my pen
I shred the paper
I wrote nothing
I am, naked...